diamond song

Does selflessness come to mind when thinking of others you claim to care about? Humans say over and over again the words “I love you” but the words carry no feeling if actions do not follow.

You constantly do what’s best for you, what will benefit me? you think to yourself. What will benefit everyone else? I think to mine. Your purpose in life isn’t to make everyone else happy no but while living your life in the process would it hurt to help others in need especially those you claim to “love”. What is love? To You I mean? is it just a word thats backed by broken promises and misleading actions? Is it lies on top of lies? Is it others having to make excuses for your so called “mistakes? Oh he’s just getting his life together cut him a break they say. I say your breaks over it’s been long enough, they say give him a bit more time. I say how much more a day a week a month a year 2 years 3 years 4 years when will it end? When I die? When I give up my life to nurture and protect one that I did not create? The difference between a user and the one being used is the user has intentions already planned out and the one being used doesn’t see it as such.
Their pure kind soul thinks they are helping urging for someone to need them to want them by their side. As a child all you want is to be accepted validated seen. I never got that, never got a physical emotional relationship with anyone in my family so I search for it elsewhere. In friends or ppl I barely know who mostly use me to benefit them. I have this thing in me that seeks validation from others but what happens when I have nothing left to give? When the giver stops giving and decided to wither away and die? When the drip finally halts? The giver even gives up on themselves, the giver gives up on their dreams and wants because they’ve been torn apart by what you claim to be love .
What about what the giver needs and wants and dreams of Doing?
What about what the giver is passionate about? Does the giver just always give never receiving in return? Is that the sad life the giver is meant to live? Forever catering to others needs longing to be catered on?? Haha what a joke this life is you could give your left foot, liver, kidney, and whole heart to someone and it still won’t quite be enough. But that’s life right your either the giver or the one that takes. Well maybe just maybe I wanna switch roles. But I don’t have it in me to take from others and not give back and that’s called love…