Always Moving (exit)

Yeah
It's like the better I get, the less you gon' listen
But I will never let it be affecting my vision
I got a couple letters that affecting precision
Cuz I'm not mature enough to make all my decisions
So my head is undecided when it comes to the big steps
But always contradicting cuz I'm impulsive as fuck
All the roads I wanna go, they confusing and tough
And I gotta work smart, plus start pushing in luck
And I gotta focus on the law of attraction
If it works, I can't use it yet, I'm lost, unattracted
When I look into myself, cuz I'm often disastrous
And if God does exist, he got a faulty contractor
Then there are other days where I'm awesome and laugh-full
And it just seems off I was calling me "asshole"
Like Em and Skylar Grey, I think I need some black magic
But I ain't selling my soul, I can do it, glass half full

If you don't like me for me what you liking me for?
Is that a question for the haters or my mind, after 4?
I think it's time I put up all the fucking lies in my drawer
But I guess I'm kinda scared of what lies in my core
Maybe everybody living just a bit in denial
And maybe when I'm sad, it's just a bit, there's a riot
In my head half the time when I try to analyze my own brain
It's like lighting propane
But would thinking less mean lower pain
Or is overthinking just a caution?
Sometimes it's pretty helpful but it's mostly just exhausting
Can I be separating all the negatives from positive?
I wanna feel happy without losing self-knowledge
Guess I'm always evolving, even when I'm stopping
Even when roadblocks step the entrance and go block it
Like a LEGO set, it's a brick at a time
And like Nas said, "Life's a Bitch", but it's fine

Now what?