Pavor Nocturnus

Bahamut shining on me
Push me to submission
My dream last night wasn't
Real I don't believe it
I told myself that it was
The real thing 4 times
She was just a mirage
So now I'm losing my mind

Never witnessed any
Thing quite like that morning
The vivid darkness struck me
Left me far from yawning
She embraced me and I
Touched her hips and her thighs
Remember every second
So this is my demise

A savage pain erupts
In my mind each time I
Put it in perspective
The failure leaves me blind and
I walk the streets through rainfall
To try soak it in but
I feel you all just laughing
At how I feel I've sinned

Now I fear sleep more
Than I fear the reaper
Melinoe calls me out
Never been so afraid
Frequent lucid dreamer
Often outshine these demons
They usually get dealt with but
Not now that she's the dealer

2:52am
Outside's a pale light
Crippling panic and then
My chest became so tight
Not too sure why but
My left arm just went cold
I hope it's not the worst
But pray this is goodbye

Rather the end of me than
To dream her face again while
She dreams of him somehow it's
Your voice I can't erase but
His name was the last thing in
Your mouth so just dig my grave
A vessel you once cared for now something you never saved

And now I just can't help
The way it slithers round my neck
And the touch of cold from my bed
You should save your fucking breath
Because I'm already heartless

Trapped under ice I lay
Wrapped up by your dismay
When I look up at your body
I know I need you back someday