Wash

Everywhere I go it don't turn around
Wash me over and dry me out
Goofy goober
Gob stopping
Could say
Pill poppin
But that was just a fantasy
Something like the hand of dreams
Could be Peter Pan
Tryna fly to neverland
Find my fan base
Im tryna find my place in space
But I'm rotating round the Sun
Bedroom a place of fun
Not talkin shawtys callin
Doors locked it's a party of one
Blurry-eyed street lights kinda Look like the sunset
If you lean your head right and you let your mind rest
But I don't let my brain sleep
I don't catch mental Zs
I hold thoughts and overthink
Until I can't even
What am I gonna be in the future
And the future is a woman and she couldn't walk smoother
But the more I try to hold her the more I seem to lose her
And I wanna be the man to date her home maker
I'd give her the world and I never would change her
She says I'm a stranger and just wanna change her
With all of my prayers and if I don't like her I just wanna slay her
I guess I'm a breaker downer
Relationship messy
I try not to let it all stress me
Try to focus on the blessed me
And the best me
And the things that always wanna test me
But then I get to question myself
And I
I need help
I need to talk to someone else
Accept myself
But I really just wanna
If I hold on
Am I in control?
Goin through
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
If I let go
Is God in control?
Goin through
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
I'm tryna be to the people
What I really need
But I'm threading a needle
Between idle and feeble
And I am the sequel
To what happens when you hide the evil
That's all up inside of you
I'm tryna be humble I'm tryna be light to you
I wanted the best for you
But I couldn't be the best for me
I'm tryna find the rest of me
And I think it lies in a Grammy
A million views so they understand me
But they couldn't hand me
An award that wins the war inside myself
Cause I pour all of myself
And then some more
Until I'm shore on the beach
Of the sea of happiness and peace
But the waves never crash into me
I die of thirst I can't breathe
Into the sand I sink
Grains of thought I can't drink
I see the water and then I blink
And all my expectations colossal
But I look at myself and I shrink
Another year older I turn to a fossil
And I'm layin in bed for a week
And I peek to the future she told
Me I peaked
I think she a liar and I'm on the brink
Of giving myself a solution to sleep
Hoping it all ain't depending on me
If I hold on
Am I in control?
Goin through
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
If I let go
Is God in control?
Goin through
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
All of these cycles
Everywhere I go it don't turn around
Wash me over and dry me out