Abstinence from You

A body is supposed to be wrapped in solace
But instead mine is submerged in dreams of distress
Trying to find the reason why your flesh and bones have left this earth
Life is a gift as long as destiny is your friend from birth
A lifelong abstinence from you seems so hard
Why did life decide to tear us apart
My eyes are closed and I’m hoping for silence
Just a stubborn act of defiance
Dreams relieve and I can be
My counterpart that was asleep
I found a hidden page in my bookshelf
Time has come to find myself
Stuck in sleepless nights
Feels like my body sits upright
I hear your voice but I cannot recall a thing
Delirium crept up on me again
Silence is a weight that I bear
Trying to express why sleep has deserted me
Deafening is the sound that I produce
My tired eyes left me staring into space
In a never-ending time-lapse
Where the author finds no rest
In a never-ending story
Not a single place consoles me
Stuck in sleepless nights
Feels like my body sits upright
I hear your voice but I cannot recall a thing
Delirium crept up on me again
Thrown against a wall mental explosion after all
Startled and shocked as the pressure took its leap
It seems that silence has abandoned my grief
The exposure of the truth was completely unsettling me
The effort I put into discussions vanished
The utterance of myself seemed clear for me
But became a poisonous cloud for my surroundings
As I guide myself through haze it puts a certain disappointment on your face
We were like flower petals avoiding cold weathers
Then we fell into gloom
Flower petals avoiding cold weathers
I just asked our petal to bloom
Remarkable how love can attach itself so easily
Prevent itself from detaching in a way as if the glue that sticks onto it
Turns drier and more solid every month
Drier and more solid every month