Black Swan

Staying with Alice, she's doing fantastic again
I'm just the mold in her living room, playing the funny friend
Late night emotional eating alone
Just worked out why I avoid going home

One day at a time, I'm falling behind into underwhelm

Black swan that I am, I'm sick of the damn chase
I'm saving a dance for feelings I can't place
Mama, turn me blonde
Black swan, black swan

You said I like to romanticize 2008
You called it what it is
The youth that I miss felt exactly the same

That's just the guy that I was and I'll be
Dissatisfied with the nature of me
You breathe the smoke of my constant emotional state, mm

Black swan that I am, I'm sick of the damn chase
I'm saving a dance for feelings I can't place
Mama, turn me blonde, take my final form
Black swan, black swan
Lost where I belong, all the signs are wrong
Black swan, black swan

I'm so comparative
Tired of feeling it
Never free of it

Wherever I am is not where I should be
That's all it is
Still making amends with my personality
Contortionist

Black swan that I am, I'm sick of the damn chase
Mama, turn me blonde, take my final form
Black swan, black swan
Lost where I belong, all the signs are wrong
Black swan, black swan