Just Kidding

Well I wish I was dead sometimes
So I wouldn't have to check my phone
I wish I was dead sometimes
So I could spend a day alone
And not feel like everybody hates me
Making plans on another planet daily, lately
I wish I was dead sometimes
Ah-ha, I'm just kidding

I packaged up my pain today
And wrapped the box in cellophane
It's clear so I can see inside
To watch the worst of me escape

But I like your apartment
I like how your hair smells
It buries all my problems
Until I forget the details
That's all I can talk about without hurting your feelings
So check out all the love I get, it's fake
And doesn't happen at all
It doesn't happen at all (at all)

I wish I was dead sometimes
So I wouldn't have to check my phone
I wish I was dead sometimes
So I could spend a day alone
And not feel like everybody hates me
Making plans on another planet daily, lately
I wish I was dead sometimes
Ah-ha, I'm just kidding

I buried all my pain today
Shallow, not too far away (not far)
If you looked then you could see inside (inside)
And watch the worst of me escape

Plan A, Plan B
Remember I'm still hurting
Mental, physical, and cyclical but what they hand me
Plan C, plan D
You can't kill what you can't see
I'll take on every little thing you hand me

But I like your apartment
I like how your hair smells
It buries all my problems
Until I forget the details
That's all I can talk about without hurting your feelings
So check out all the love I get, it's fake
And doesn't happen at all
It doesn't happen at all (at all)

I wish I was dead sometimes
So I wouldn't have to check my phone
I wish I was dead sometimes
So I could spend a day alone
And not feel like everybody hates me
Making plans on another planet daily, lately
I wish I was dead sometimes
Ah-ha, I'm just kidding
(He's just joking, it's fine)
Not far away

(And repeat)