Steady Straight Lights/Sudden Dark Turns

[Verse 1]
I've never been normal, I've always been lost
Always had a voice in the back of my head that, for some reason, never shuts off
Meaning it's never quiet (Nope), not even a moment of silence
Not even for a second when I lay my head down and I close my eyelids
You should try this new diet (OK), you should really try harder
You're fraudulent, you’ll never finish anything just like your father
You think you're so clever, don't you? “The Makeshift Martyr”
What school did you go to? Oh, that's right. You didn't bother
Now it bothers you, affects every pore and every molecule
You're too stupid to see that nobody likes you, that's why you sit alone in solitude
Although you're aware of your apathy, you manage to hide it fantastically
Masquerading around like you're happy, but, in reality, you are actually
Tormented with more attention, most people would adore the mentions
But you suffer in silence, sit here quiet, dull your senses
And annul your sentences. Everything you've ever said
You’re John Cusack, they want their two dollars, you're Better Off Dead

[Chorus]
Is there no one who can help me?
Anxiety
All the things you swore solemnly
Anxiety
Even your mom confessed
When it comes to you, she's unimpressed
Somebody please put me out of my misery
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[Verse 2]
Wait. You think I wanted it to be this way?
I could be like my high school friends, in jail or passed away
That's why I keep all the things I think and feel stashed away
The doctor gives me pills to mask the symptoms, keeps them all at bay
And I just float through life. I'm a muted version of me
I'm more high now that I'm clean than back when I was a junkie
How does that make sense? (What?) Why is my throat so lumpy?
How come I'm sure that the Devil's below me but God couldn't be above me?
“I'm an eccentric artist.” (Yup) That's what I tell myself
But I'm pretty sure that, when people meet me, they're convinced I'm retarded as hell
What if I OD'd from eighty-milligram OC's
And then snort enough cocaine to make a polar bear's nose freeze?
That was the old me. (Yup) I swear to God I've changed (I swear)
To those that know me well, they'd also tell you I'm not the same
But it's still in me, and if that switch gets flipped
I'll drag all you motherfuckers back to Hell with me

[Chorus]
Is there no one who can help me?
Anxiety
All the things you swore solemnly
Anxiety
Even your mom confessed
When it comes to you, she's unimpressed
Somebody please put me out of my misery
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