Doubt

I felt it happening so fast,
Although at first it took a while.
I was no one to dwell on the past,
But it chased away my smile.

I felt no grave questions to ask,
Until they burst into the open.
I did not see the fragile mask,
Atop all that was unspoken.

Did i walk down the right path?
Did i make the right decisions?

It is then that i feel doubt,
Afraid that it is all i am.
It pervades my life throughout,
And there is no one else to blame.

Sometimes it makes me want to cry,
And let it out as best i might.
Sometimes i feel i want to die,
And fade away into the night.

I thought my life can be a blast,
With odds that are there to defy.
I did not mind it to be fast,
Never look back and rather die.

I did not think the dice were cast,
With fate looming in the distance.
But i felt it take hold at last,
When it crushed all my resistance.

It is then that i feel doubt,
Afraid that it is all i am.
It pervades my life throughout,
And there is no one else to blame.

Sometimes it makes me want to cry,
And let it out as best i might.
Sometimes i feel i want to die,
And fade away into the night.

I will live with it all the same.
I will live with it all the same.

It is then that i know doubt,
But it is not all i am.
I will bring my life about,
And live with it all the same.