new seeds

I want to meet the sun and the moon
Let me out
But I don't want to leave the earth
Too soon
Calm me down

Sometimes I fear that there's too Much
But it's only myself that gets me stuck
Wherever I go, it stays the same
It's all in my head, must be nobody to Blame

And I've been trying to keep it quiet
Maybe I'll never have the power to
Change it

I'm terrified of needing you
Or anyone
Try again tomorrow and mess it all Up
Might come undone

The roots within me have been torn Up
Don't know where these new seeds Are coming from
But I'd like to keep them
Something's closing me off from What I want
If I can't help or be good, should I Just run?

I've been trying to keep it quiet
Maybe I'll never have the power to Change it
It's not enough to just ignore this
Wander aimlessly til there's no
Choice but to face it

Let me out
Calm me down
Let me out
Calm me down

Or these seeds will never grow