Dark Clouds

Hey I’m back again
Check the morgue cause the past is dead
J just drop the pen
Write this then I’ll consider when
To give it all up like I’m running from the future
Usain, who me? More like loser
Wanna see my trophies? Well I brought a few sure
Here they are! Better pack your bags cause the rest are back home
Gotta case full, faithful, painful
But these trophies of mine (Mind) are what I been through
Made you break, you mend you
Hate to say it but I fell through
One for the time where I fell for you
Face planted now but I won too
One for the time when the panic hit
Brought me down but I handled it
Took the best from the worst of all of it
Been forced to quit but I morphed a bit
Not Morpheus but the Lord has sent
Been born again but I adore the sin
Lost in my sight and I fight off the nights where I write and lie and I say I’m alright
But the pain that’s inside has been boiled at high with the fire I tried to extinguish and fight
But the flames wanna none of the tears that I hide use a mirror to divide
Between me and my lies and the fears that I tried to run away from
Now wake up!
Now shape up!
Hey I’m back again
Check the morgue cause the past is dead
J just drop the pen
Write this then I’ll consider when
Wait I’ve found a friend
Psych that’s me it’s your mind again
Hey just take my hand
Let’s bury your pain and just keep it in
Dark clouds roll over
Rain pours gets colder
Wind blows chilled over
I’m told you’re over
Rated but I’m hated Imma make it
I’m debated contemplated
But I’m tainted like I’m David
I’ll be patient I’m acquainted with the waiting
I’ve been praying for a time like this
In my mind like this
When I write like this
I escape the abyss of the lies that I live
And I live like this so I give what I live
I admit in the midst of the wind I’ve been pushed to the fence
But I meant what I said when I said what I meant
In the depth of my sins but I’m cleansed of debts
By the one that was sent
But my faith still collapse in the blink of a sec
I relapse to the past and I hate that I’m back
And in fact see the map of my eyes I just sleep I don’t rest
I’m a mess, I’m a wreck, I confess
I stand alone on this shoulder
I walk the road of exposure
Now open your eyes and see closer
Your vision is blurry I’m sober
I need some more help some more closure
Alone in my nights I just smolder
Take God on my side as my chauffeur
I’m armored up like a soldier
Hey I’m back again
Check the morgue cause the past is dead
J just drop the pen
Write this then I’ll consider when
Wait I’ve found a friend
Psych that’s me it’s your mind again
Hey just take my hand
Let’s bury your pain and just keep it in
The time that is mine it defines my design
I’m lost in the grind I’m lost undefined
To leave it all behind is a thought in my mind
Do I change who I am or stay the man that’s a lie?
Or is it God that I find who decides my demise?
I just lie and decide I’m alright yeah I’m fine
But I might wanna try and live a life that is right
That is mine mighty fine so divine I align but I find
People wanna fake me wanna take me drag me down in a coffin underground
That I built for myself with the sin in my cells
Let us in we’ll just help
Close the door shut em out
But they scream and they shout
Overwhelmed I just fell they just stomped on the door
Broke it down with a force
Knocked me down to the floor
Please no more
Please no more
Want no war
But what for? (But what for?)
My mind is clouded my thoughts are lost
I'm good at doubting I want to stop
I built this house I turned the lock
I tossed the key in a hidden a spot
Been forced to face my deepest thoughts
I sit in space when I think of songs
Now tic toc do you hear the clock?
Your time is up, Now laugh it up
Hey I’m back again
Check the morgue cause the past is dead
J just drop the pen
Write this then I’ll consider when
Wait I’ve found a friend
Psych that’s me it’s your mind again
Hey just take my hand
Let’s bury your pain and just keep it in