Loosing Focus

I don't understand
Bottled emotions and feelings be weighing me down
Weighing me down
I'm loosing my mind
I'm loosing control of the wheel
Cause I'm bleeding inside and it's freaking me out
Freaking me out
One hell of a ride
Puff puff in the air make the pain go away
Cause I'm sad I've been living a lie
Living a lie
And I've been loosing focus
Surprised I didn't notice
I was sinking in your potion
Now I'm lost and broken
Oya baby will you tell me now
Was you here for the love or the money now?
Really you was not the type to be needy now
Because when I met you you was doing fine
You got me confused how I'm feeling now
You made my heart bleed you're a killer now
Now it's all clear and I realized
All the times you said you loved me
You telling lies
Lay me down
Lay me down
You let me down
Let me down
I never thought
All my life
That you was
Genocide
Genocide
Oh my god
Oh my god oh
You took my soul
And my heart too
What did I
What did I do?
To deserve
To deserve this
Hmm hmm
Now run along
Will you run along
When I thought I had you
I was all alone
And I always did
All you ever wanted
Now I'm broken
And I've been loosing focus
Surprised I didn't notice
I was sinking in your potion
Now I'm lost and broken
Oya baby will you tell me now
Was you here for the love or the money now?
Really you was not the type to be needy now
Because when I met you you was doing fine
You got me confused how I'm feeling now
You made my heart bleed you're a killer now
Now it's all clear and I realized
All the times you said you loved me
You telling lies