Alleycat Blues

These lines that we all draw and choose to cross are often too much to handle
And after that first step all joy is completely replaced with regret
We forget about the reasons why we cherish the things that we love
And they're constantly being placed on the back burner time after time again
We're stuck in a revolving door screaming
Begging for our own innocence back
But our screeching is continuously falling upon deaf ears
We're reaching our hands out in desperation
Waiting for anything to latch on and hopefully pull us all back to the surface again

Let's go
My lungs are finally cooperating and forming complete sentences again
Since the last time you stole my breath from me
I see now you aren't worth missing
How many times did you hide the truth from me
How many times did you lie right to my face
For the first time I can finally see
You are the reason why this weight is still crushing me

I'm counting the cuts on my wrist
And I'm feeling the shame with each stitch
I don't know why I thought that I'd always need you
I carved a hole in your chest
With the knife that you left in my back
It took too long to realize that I fucking hate you

With every moment that I spend with misery
I only grow fonder of her
A cruel convincing replication of a masterpiece
Rendering in poisonous ink
You had me infatuated with your beauty
You had me intoxicated by your flawlessness
I hope you know that you're worth more than just a passing glance
To me, you are a vial memory

You may have fooled us all
But you fucked up now
Your world becomes unrecognizable

I'm counting the cuts on my wrist
And I'm feeling the shame with each stitch
I don't know why I thought that I'd always need you
I carved a hole in your chest
With the knife that you left in my back
It took too long to realize that I fucking hate you