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You make sick

Screaming to be let out

I am watering the dirt around my feet
I keep standing in my own way
I often fantasize about a world where my feet
Can touch the ground constantly
But I'm bottomed out
And I'm sinking down
And I'm too far out for you to save me now

The shadows on the ceiling
A silhouette that I'll never forget
When the room stops spinning
I'll be the same man I always pretend I am

Take me home
I'm striking nails into my coffin
I guess soon enough I'll be hell's problem

I'm in the mirror again
This time I'm realizing it's been three days since I've had the last drink
Three days since the last time I've fallen asleep
Night sweats, cold chills running down my back
Been to the bottom before
But nothing ever like this
Oh what I wouldn't give to just be able to
Throw myself into the abyss
Just one more sip

And all this time
I've just been harboring hatred
For you and your worthless, vile, cancerous existence