Blue World
Brushed the ice off my heart
I'm still alive
Still a prize
Thought I lost my way for a while
Wasn't sound, but I'm still aligned
I see the signs
This winter's mine
Oh mine all mine
It's time to get out my own way
Gotta go hard enough to change these ways
I gotta get up out this
Depression, paranoia, lust, and rage
A never ending cycle of this pain
I can't control what's on my mind
I'm wishin I could pay to stop it
And this weight that's on my shoulders
Hope it ain't too late to drop it
Gotta break the pattern
And the weight of this responsibility is almost killin me
Keep my daughter safe from predators until the end of me
And I'm not insane
I'm just not okay
I'll expose my scars
It's the only way I'm getting through it
Every tear I cried it was not in vain
The release is hard trading peace for pain
I've been the bluest
God was sending guardian angels They couldn't tame me
It wasn't time
I was going after dangerous niggas
How could you blame me
I wasn't wise
I was looking for protection
Ain't know about love
Even when I found direction
Ain't know who to trust
Lookin back at all my lessons
I know what it was
Three generations tired of fighting these niggas
Still wonder where they get their ways from
The shiestiest niggas ruined my life
Trying to find forgiveness but it's
been taking time
Stopped myself from seeking vengeance and I'm losing my mind
Wanna spray the ones who did this
But it ain't my right
Fuck up all my future riches
No that ain't my life
I'm losing time
And I'm not insane
I'm just not okay
I'll expose my scars
It's the only way I'm getting through it
Every tear I cried it was not in vain
The release is hard trading peace for pain
I've been the bluest
I'm searching for a light in the sky
Glowing in the dark
I know I am
I see the pain in your eyes
It's okay to cry
I know I am
I'm gonna be alright, I'll be fine
Even though I'm crawling in the dark
I know I am the truth
Tryna figure out why this world is so blue
I've been sad about
Sad about it
Sad about it
Sad about it yeah
Sad about it
Sad about it
Sad about it
Sad about it yeah
Brushed the ice off my heart
I'm still alive