Despair

Last night I tried to call you, but I ain't get no answer
I tried to call again, & sent a text two minutes after
& it kinda drives me crazy, cause I know you see me calling you
Giving me the silent treatment, I just wanna talk to you
I know I'm not perfect, & I hurt you before
But I can't help the situation if I'm getting ignored
What happened to us and the love we used to have for each other?
Road trips, and the plans with each other
I guess their gone, already made your decision
But aye, the more I tried the more you drifted away
& It was probably never you intention to stay
& knowing that, it's hard to get through my day
Constantly on my mind, I'm always thinking on what we coulda been
Hate all the mistakes I made, I dwell on what I shoudla did
I bet that you regret the very day that you found me
You'd honestly probably do better without me

But I'm trynna give you all the happiness that's left in me
Although it isn't much, nah it isn't much
& with that said thank you for the memories
Guess that's the end of us, yeah that's the end of us

Look, I just wish that we could see our pride to the side
But I'm too stubborn yo I tried & I tried
Maybe I just didn't give you enough of my time
Or maybe I was just getting to outta line
But either way I take the blame for the mistakes I made
Scarred from the past & our memories are razor blades
& your voice is like a 4-5 to my dome piece
The very day you left I started drinking with the homies
Cause I got no where to run to, no where to pour my feelings out
So I keep em bottled up inside until I spill em out
& I can be there for you, to kiss you & hug you
But the worst part is that you said you never felt like I loved you

But I'm trynna give you all the happiness that's left in me
Although it isn't much, nah it isn't much
& with that said thank you for the memories
Guess that's the end of us, yeah that's the end of us