Numb PT. 2

Yeah

I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to
I see people say they're happy, but their smile is see-through
I hear people say they love me, but I don't believe you
That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you
See, I'm just scared I'll never love again
Why can't you put it past us and love me for who I am?
I'm startin' to feel like I've been gettin' closer to my sins
And this devil on my shoulder is the only that lives, but
There was times I would feel too deep, I would start to panic
And the people I gave my all to would take advantage
See, you called me crazy, but I pick up every time it rings
When you say that you hate me, I just don't understand it
Maybe I'm too damaged, maybe I'm too broken
Maybe I'm losin' myself or maybe I'm just hopeless
It's like we live inside a world where we can't show emotions
Like the ones that hurt us most are who we hold the closest (are who we hold the closest)
And I just feel like there's nowhere else to run (nowhere else to run)
I'm scared of seein' mirrors 'cause I hate who I become (I hate who I become)
I can never find a reason why I'm just so hard to love
But I can find a thousand reasons why I'm loadin' up this gun, look
These days I need to be alone, but I hate bein' lonely (I hate bein' lonely)
And I hate the new me, but I don't miss the old me
Still damaged by the empty love you tried to show me
'Cause I wasn't the only one, it was your one and only
And my family don't look at me the same
They look at me like we don't share the same blood in our veins
They look at me like I'm different when they're the ones who changed, or
Maybe I was too distant, too stuck in my ways (Too stuck in my ways), fuck
I hope God hears me, no one's prayin' for me
Your eyes tell me everything you're scared of sayin' to me
My heart is growin' cold, but you would never know
I learned to love these scars by forgivin' those who gave 'em to me
Certain people will never get who I am (never get who I am)
Sometimes you have to listen to silence to understand (silence to understand)
Wore my heart on my sleeve and I put my life in your hands
Did all I could, you still made me feel like less than a man (made me feel like less than a man)

We always seem to run from those that love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last 'cause
You left me when I needed you most

I said, we always seem to run from those that love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last
We just hopin' that it last (hopin' that it last)