i can't save you

I can't save you, him, her
Sometimes it feels like this life of mine is a curse
Sometimes it feels like I ain't down here on earth
But when I have nothing I still hold on to these words
I can't save you, him, her
It's funny how she tells me to hold on to my worth
Kinda hard to smile in a world full of hurt
And you know life's a bitch but I guess I love to flirt
You tell me you would give your life to see me succeed
And my reply is I lie, hide, deceive and I cheat
Funny how this shit comes naturally, it's easy to me
At this point is it my fault if you still choose to believe
That there's a decent human being in this vessel that is speaking
Isabel, it's hard to tell if I'm alive if I've been breathing
I don't mean to do you dirty, I don't mean to do you harm
I didn't want my name to ever end up as another scar
For your collection from your mother or your best friends
Or anybody else if that happens to represent them
I know you feeling cheated and slighted
I know you hate me, you hate me
I know you love me but when you see me you start to get angry
Cause you think about our history, extensive with our past
And all them chances that you gave me that I turned away so fast
So I could move to California, live this life as a musician
True love over music, that's a joke, you must be kidding
I don't know what I would do if you ever were to get hurt
Cause it's a dangerous lifestyle that I'm choosing for my work
I'm still young, dumb and reckless, my lyrics could get me killed
Off of someone being jealous, or maybe their jokes and thrills
We started dating as kids, girl look at us we're adults
Your codependency crazy, honestly though that's my fault
You looking at me like dude, come on dawg what the fuck
How you tell me you love me but yet you won't open up
You see my momma did her thing while my daddy had sat in jail
But grandma she held me down but yet I still feel like I failed
Cause I am not the kid she took and made
All that time to go and raise
How'd I flush our four and a half years right down the fucking drain
See I come from a culture that you may not understand
I never had the family that would help or do the holding hands
You're overbearing, oversharing when you think I have stopped caring
I can't do this when you're like this, all these feelings getting scary
We went through Tom and Michael's accident
Two angels that were heaven sent
Shaft the alter ego you knew and loved me when I was Trent
We go back to each other cause we're all that we know
We can't get back together till we live our lives on our own
I would never want to keep you in the shadows of my fame
What kind of person would I be to keep you tucked and locked away
Replay this record with the intent of everything we've been through
If you ever doubt the fact that Isabel I'll always love you