Anhedonia
Jill Sinclair
In hell
I found fury with a view
An agreeable concept abandoned by you
I'm not through -
The worst of it all
The higher you climb, the farther you'll fall
Left inane
No more synth in the brain
The fire, the flame
Consumed by the rage
And the wave
Pull the plug to the drain
And let it flow out
Like words arcane
My own prey
I fell victim to shame
Exhale anhedonia
Today
I'm not saved
A pendulum swing
Encased like a ring
I prayed on and manifested in dreams
But I hurt
Myself today
I'm not what I thought
Or wanted to play
My own prey
I fell victim to shame
Exhale anhedonia
Today
I'm not
My own prey
I fell victim to shame
Exhale anhedonia
Today
Prey
I fell victim to shame
Exhale anhedonia
Today
I'm not saved
Still feel the blaze in my veins
And now I cry out
Morally depraved