Shitfaced

This life it ain't forever and now I'm feeling lost
All the lines are painted on the pavement, they won't bring me home
I was feeling optimistic about a lost commitment until I heard my phone
And I felt the relapse, the need for green glass, the fire in my throat
I guess I'm all alone drunk. I feel fucking numb

I tried to walk with Jesus and ask him for help
Well I dealt the question and held out my hand but I was talking to myself
My frustration in this situation brings me down this road
Where I can't allow myself to be without her, and now she's gone
Was I wrong? I've known you since we were kids
And this song is for all my dead fucking friends

The air just got too cold. I just want to drink until I can’t feel anything
No calm before the storm. No sunshine when she's gone
I was feeling optimistic about a lost commitment, now I can’t find my way home

This mirror holds the cruelest effigy. It's an image I loathe that can't be consoled
It’s a bottle and heart full of ache. My mistake, I was wrong
Shitfaced in the pouring rain, and this song just magnifies my misery
I’m behind the wheel and I’m screaming

Self inflicted, next statistic. I may have shot my faith, but if anyone is listening...
...I pray there's a day that I can wake and not feel ashamed