After Death

Am I gonna die here?
How did I end up on this floor, unable to see clear?
I've turned into someone I don't know
The weight on my chest feels like this is the lowest life can go
I'm buried inside my darkest fears
Just curled up beside you in this hole

I'm a little messed up lying here alone
Got no place to run now, lookin' for a house that's a home
Think I blacked out when I saw your ghost
I'm a little messed up
I'm a fucking mess after death, oh

I'm a little messed up, messed up
I'm a little messed up

The memories haunt me
They come out when I need you the most
This isn't what you wanted, but it's what we got
And I've turned into somebody I don't know
The weight on my chest feels like I'm living in this hell alone
I'm buried inside my darkest fears
But the departed come and go

I'm a little messed up lying here alone
Got no place to run now, lookin' for a house that's a home
Think I blacked out when I saw your ghost
I'm a little messed up
I'm a fucking mess after death, oh

I'm a little messed up lying here alone
Got no place to run now, lookin' for a house that's a home
There's no way out, feel it in my bones
I'm a little messed up
I'm a fucking mess after death, oh

I'm a little messed up, messed up
I'm a little messed up

I've been living in a body shedding skin
All the chemicals are pulsing through my blood
Don't questions my beliefs, not here to make a speech
Would you be angry at the daughter lately I've become?
I know I'm breathing in a whole new life without you
But daddy, I'm afraid I won't make it, I'll die too
The doctors told me that I need to face the damage soon
I'll only do it if I have to

I'm a little messed up lying here alone
Got no place to run now, lookin' for a house that's a home
Think I blacked out when I saw your ghost
I'm a little messed up
I'm a fucking mess after death, oh

I'm a little messed up lying here alone
Got no place to run now, lookin' for a house that's a home
There's no way out, feel it in my bones
I'm a little messed up
I'm a fucking mess after death, oh