Apology

Back in the tenth grade
Didn't know each other that well
Somehow we started talking
And quickly I fell under your spell
You're a social butterfly
If you liked me too, I couldn't tell
But I got my answer
When I heard you were into someone else
A couple years later
Casually talking again
This time it felt different
I don't even know where to begin
I fell deeper for you
But got too scared so I never told
Now I keep on thinking
Was it the right call to fold?

Never knew if you felt the same
Never knew if I was worthy of your heart
Can't say that I loved you
Cause I never let it get that far
Never knew if you gave me signs
But I prefer words, can't read your mind
But in case you had feelings too
This is my apology to you

You caught me off guard
As I am used to being ignored
You gave me attention
Never really had that before
Were you into me at all?
Or was I just convenient for you?
So instead of confessing
Let you slip away cause I was confused
Was I right for you, was I wrong for you?
Never had a chance to show
Was I nothing to you, or did I hurt you?
Something that I'll never know

Never knew if you felt the same
Never knew if I was worthy of your heart
Can't say that I loved you
Cause I never let it get that far
Never knew if you gave me signs
But I prefer words, can't read your mind
But in case you had feelings too
This is my apology to you
My apology

Why did I run away
These feelings that I can't forget
The fear of rejection
Has nothing on regret