Jumbled Thoughts
I put my heart in everything I do
Clearly that's not enough
Take my whole soul and pour it out
Now you can sew me shut, fuck
This life just isn't as advertised
Look at my eyes
I fantasize about a day with bluer skies
And truthfully
Trying to express myself is new to me
I knew I'd be hated on but
Why be so cruel to me?
But fuck it and fuck you
You ain't worth shit
All those shots you took missed and
I can promise you this
And now I laugh at the hate
And put my best foot forward
But even with the crowd around me
I still feel like a loner
Yet I would rather be alone than
Have to deal with the fakes
We all came in this world alone and
We all leave the same way
Waitwhere am I going with this?
Mind is so jumbled and as I stumble I
Just smile cause I always stay humble
Now look at me, I mean, wait
Just look right through me
My life's a movie, funny how
People think they knew me, how could they?
I'm still trying to figure out who I am
If life's a beach, then I'll just sit here
Write my lines in the sand and understand
Change once used to make me nervous but
They say change is for the better
Now I'm thinking it's worth it, yeah
"The Prelude" dropped
I was absorbing the buzz
But now I see that as a
Small baby step cause it was
And life does take you for rides
So just take it in strides
But over everything, the money and
The power, it's pride, wow
I can't believe where my life's at now
And things are moving so fast
Now do they ever slow down? Where am I now?
Thinking back I'm in my friend's basement
And that we have so far to go, success
I can taste it to all my family and friends
You were all amazing
And as long as you have my back
I know that I can make it, yeah
And those who stayed by my side since day one
Just know that everything I win is
Like we all have won
And I know I'm not the perfect person
And I don't try to be
And I know sometimes I act stubborn
Please bear with me
I swear I have the best intentions
And a heart of gold
And offer you a story that
Is unwritten and untold
I learned that most people leave but
To the ones that stay:
Thank you for everything, one day
We'll have it made, yeah
One day we'll have it made, yeah
One day we'll have it made, I promise