Where Was Heaven

[Intro]
Shit, sometimes man I just get stressed out
I be like damn yo I wanna go over here and smack a nigga up
You know what I'm sayin?
Crime Syndicate shit though niggaz know us
Know what I'm sayin my peeps put me on
For real ... shit's fucked up yo
You know what I'm sayin religion's all good
But where was heaven? Yo

[Verse 1]
An ordinary cat from outta projects
Since I was younger though
Mom raised her children
Pops dipped a long time ago
In my mind I see flashbacks
I had no fancy clothes
Skinny, ugly, notty head nigga cryin with a snotty nose
Even though my father neglect he pay the child support
Hadn't seen him all these years
I hug his ass in court
Always sayin I'm comin to get you and I be waitin to
Holiday and birthday presents was never comin through
'Member at the age 13 I started smokin weed
Hangin out with cats that was older start to run the street
Dropped outta high school sellin drugs, impressin chicks
Spent most my cheddar on gear
My man was buyin whips
New York, Jamaican, Miami niggaz
Flooded Virginia quick
Cause signin work only if buyin
Pressure was high as shit
'Member when I first got hit
I seen the iron spit
50 cash bend in one corner bleedin where pellet hit
My man Shawnny Hill doin strong
Slug burnt through his lower back side
Cracked his spine exit his arm
Lost him twice on the hospital table
And when he died I cried my eyes out
I couldn't take it (damn damn)
But the same things continued to happen
Niggaz got bust
I'm a kid with a grown man's mind turnin corrupt
Playin innocent infront of my elders
I was runnin with them cats that be robbin to awkward (man tell 'em)
If my name was up in any type trouble
My moms would tell me
Just like you brothers into some shit go get a job or somethin
Just a little bum on the street
Not workin hard for nuttin'
Scratch I made whenever pumpin
I'm here to offer somethin
Makin sure the crib stay tight
For real I weren't no dummy
Simmy where you gettin this money
I wash a car be lyin
Sayin anythin 'sides drugs sellin
My sister seen me on the block
Transact with fiends sayin "I'ma tell it"
Growin up was hell no doubt
I wonder where was heaven

[women singin in the background]

For real though
Always look for that place call heaven
It's never there
I seen my man's an' 'em gets.. just get blasted
on the block
Know what I'm sayin?
I go in the crib I got stains all over my shirt
Know what I'm sayin?
And my mom's knew the type of shit I was goin through
Cause I was a project kid

[Verse 2]
Now I'm a grown man
Still It's like life dealt me the wrong hand
Cat's that was my man be frontin
Or either found dead
Sound said incarcerated just turned a new dad
Rememberin them long ten months from slengin crack bags
Mom put me out with the quickness
Carry your black ass
I'm still comin back to the crib
Oh so you back here
Ma I jut came to holler to see how you doin
Nothin's changed after all these years
Still hustle for some gear
Smoke weed, still drink beers
I tell you from my heart
Yo, times I'm like yeah

[women start singin again]

I wonder if heaven has a place on this planet
I'd find it right there

Just a kid though
All I wanna roll with