First Love

[Intro]
Yeah
(Thank you, 41beats)

[Verse 1]
Started out with a bang
Don't know why I knew I could hang
I met Todd out in N.P
Empty beer bottles and nangs
I came back to Aucks with a spark
I perfected things in the dark
Think you wanna step in my shoes?
Fuck, you must be having a laugh
Know I paid the price for this art
“Who the fuck you think you are? Nas?”
That’s the type of shit that you hear
When half the crowd is havin' a dart
Durin' your set, but that’s in the past
Been a while but got scars
Took plenty L's like Haas
Now, all that's half full is the glass
Go 'head, think about that
Bit on edge, you blink and I'll snap
Hurts my heart they're thinkin' 'bout traps
When all I’m doin’ is bringin' out slaps
Worst thing I could do is react
Been through hell but seemin’ relaxed
What your feelings mean to me? Jack
Ain't no one as mean as me - fact
Nowadays, see where we at
From motels, sleepin' in flats
Stuck somewhere out in Ashburton
Trippin' balls from eatin’ up hash
Bad promoters feedin' us snacks
Those per diems we weren't seein'
So now they need to be taxed
My fee need to be maxed

[Chorus]
Hard to put in words
How it feel 'cause nothin' burn
Like your first love
Blinded by every mistake
I never learnt from
I can't be somebody out here that they
Never heard from
Even when there's somethin' better
Know I curved 'em
I'm sayin' this is it for me
My brain gettin' sick of me
Well, cool, that ain't shit to me
For real
I can't put in words
That nothin' burn
Like your first love
Blinded by every mistake (Yeah)
I never learnt

[Verse 2]
No peers
Came and went, there was no tears
Different gen' ain't got shit in common
Miss the point when I'm riffin' on 'em
Cherry-Evans, I chip it on 'em
I put it down then I'm dippin' on 'em
Since '04 still tippin' on 'em
Like Mike Jones, Swishahouse
Phone numbers ain't given out
Dreamt of things and I lived 'em out
Who knows if I'm missin' out?
It's too late to go bitch about
This what I do, it's a given now
Tryna stay in love is the mission now
Don't need nobody's permission now
Reason that they all listen out
Just moved Mum overseas
Since my youth, nothin' was free
And the worst cost of all's time
Can't buy that shoppin' online
I see things here in the family home
Make my heart stop on a dime
Know my brother died in that room
Room next door, wrote my first rhyme
Brought my first girl, scored the first time
Even when it's awkward, it's fine
Might rub some people the wrong way
Can't let 'em stop you from tryin'
Passport in my left hand
Can't ever stop me from flyin'
Don't text me with no bullshit
I ain't ever fucken replyin'
Stonex boy before I was signed
If I said I saw this, I'm lyin'
Million streams ain't in the cards
When all your cards get declined
Self-doubt get you wonderin'
Are these people deaf? Are they blind?
Or maybe, just maybe
I'm really one-of-a-kind
I hear people sayin' it's time
Know that I got somethin' in mind
Put quote marks around that
Like it's stuff that Virgil designed
Love hearts on these apps
When there's fans learnin' my lines
Same feels when a song dropped
And I first heard it on Mai
I'll get verses off till I die
I've been thinkin' back to the past
Pap to Devonport drives
Sunday afternoon starts
Mt Albert, Botany Downs
Used to roll from all around town
Wrote almost all of my debut
When my bedroom was a lounge
Guess I don't need nothin' flash
It's all about the heart and the sound
Spectating's cool but it hits diff'
When your boot mark's on the ground
When you really out on the pitch
Must feel like what I found

[Chorus]
Hard to—hard to put in words
How it feel 'cause nothin' burn
Like your first love
Blinded by every mistake
I never learnt from
I can't be somebody out here that they
Never heard from
Even when there's somethin' better
Know I curved 'em
I'm sayin' this is it for me
My brain gettin' sick of me
Well, cool, that ain't shit to me
For real
I—I can't put in words
That nothin' burn
Like your first love
Blinded by every mistake
I never learnt