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She is born her mother's heartbeat
Her father's voice
The orange color inside her eyelids
Flowers cover everything
She discovers her hands and feet
She watches dust swirl in the strange light
Her mother's stories
Aware that her body is separate
She turns two
The sound of children playing outside
Wanting something she doesn't have
The feeling of being alone
The girl she wanted to be like
She imagines getting more attention
The sunlight on her skin she turns four
Learning to read, learning to write
Her walk home her mother's laugh

Her parents argue about the same things
Her first friend conflict
Suddenly aware of energy all around her
The feeling of love
Her house felt big, small, scary, nice
The summer it was so hot
Sweat dripping down her arm
Becoming aware of cruelty
The feeling of the rug on her body laughing
Watching women on television
Her father's work

She learns how to lie to her mother
To her friend to her father
The story of her father's scar
The girl who made her feel dumb
The girl who was hit by the car
The air felt perfect on her skin
She is ten now could she run forever?
She wants to be a dancer
Waiting, eating, sleeping, listening
A new best friend
She feels different about her mother
Fantasizing about John Dettman
She wonders why her father is easier?
The man who talked her into the
Bathroom at the department store
Should her face be different?
She senses boys prefer to talk
The hum from the speakers her first period
Emily Dranso, her first kiss
The music sounded chaotic at first
But then she liked it
Watching wars on television
Time in buildings time in cars
The first "I love you"
She wants to live somewhere else
Saying goodbye to her mother
Going to college
She wonders if she is interesting
Learning about history a new boyfriend

The building where she got an abortion
Arguing with her mother about getting married
She feels she's herself for the first time
She gets married a new job
Feeling capable, she is good at work
Her husband is different than she thought
Sexual problems
Not understanding her feelings
She thinks about the body language of men
Another man new best friend
She resents loving him as much as she does
The smell of the at night in her new town
A financial crisis she is pregnant
Feeling big, small, scared, at ease
Her pregnancy creates more distance
With her mother
She learns about funds, legs, feet
She feels like an imposter a new job

The music that makes her think of the past
Surprised at how much
Others delude themselves
She wonders how much she deludes herself
Objects she thinks about
But doesn't know why
Finding out her mother died

New television shows
Were there more clouds when she was a child?
She worries her husband doesn't
Love her anymore
She worries she doesn't love her husband
Remembering her childhood in a
More positive light
Calling her father on Sundays

She is more able to love
Her son than her husband
Realizing her son doesn't need her
Like he used to
Arguing with her husband about
The same things her son's body is changing
Her father dies remembering his voice
She realizes she's always been
Afraid of nature

A new diet, an new understanding of health
She feels closer to her husband
She remembers a story
Arguing with her husband about
The same things her son leaves home
She often thinks of when her son was younger
A friend who cannot be helped
Her son gets married

No one talked to her about menopause
Jean Pullman, one afternoon
A sudden new feeling about music
A crisis, people act like nothing happened
But nothing is the same they travel
She notices she is changing
She promised her husband he'd die at home
Places in her mind
The sound of children playing outside
She is a grandmother
Feeling big, small, scared, at ease
A new best friend

Talking to her son on Sundays
She wonders how she became this person
Not others she begins to write
She dreams of her mother dancing
An unexpected illness her son's hands